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2007-12-03 - getting adjusted

First day of voluntary (if temporary) unemployment since...since I was in college. Hell, even when I lost my full-time job in '95, I was still working part-time retail. I dropped off the kids (since it's temporary and my sitter needs Christmas money, too, no point in fucking over Adam's routine) and came back to the house, ready to tackle my long list of Things I Can Do With No Job to Worry About.

So far, I have covered "make a fresh pot of coffee" and "surf the internet".

Both of which I did often while I was gainfully employed.

I need to work on this "lady of leisure" thing. (Which, in my head, I pronounce as "lay-ZHUR-eye-ay", thank you, Eddie Izzard.)

This will all change when the mail gets here; I am waiting for that final paycheck, and then will have to run some errands. Until then, I will let myself enjoy the peace and quiet of a childfree house. Seriously, I don't think I've spent a day without kids in over a year. No "can I haves", no "don't touch", no babies eating dog food or third graders having stomping hissy fits, no backtalk, no diapers, no dog carpet-sharking for crumbs. It's kind of awesome.

My feet are cold; I have two pairs of slippers, and can only find one from each. Which would be okay, except one is a purple handknit one my mom made for me and the other is a black Isotoner-type that I bought to wear toward the end of my pregnancy last year. It would just look...weird. Though my bare floors are chilly enough I am beginning to not worry about it and am seriously starting to ponder throwing them on anyway. Who's going to see me? The mailman? I am already in clothes that are too big, why should I care about mismatched slippers?

That is the worst thing about losing weight, I am discovering; the clothes. I do not want to buy new things every time I go down a size, but things are hanging on me and I still look huge. (Well, I suppose by most standards I amstill huge, but not as huge as I used to be, is my point.) It's okay, though, it will all be worth it next year when I hit my goal...which is size 12. I don't even have a real weight in mind; a general area, perhaps, but the size 12 is pretty firmly fixed in my mind. I will never be willowy and thin, and I am okay with that. I am 35 years old and have borne two children; I don't think I could be a size 8 again if I wanted to. (Well, I could, but it might not be especially healthy-looking.) My main goal is just to be able to not afford to buy clothes in regular stores again; it would be nice to find nothing flattering to wear in a much wider variety.

All right. The coffee has really kicked in, and now I am eyeing up my surroundings, wondering how best they might be purged of clutter. Time to shut down the laptop and get moving.

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